I’m sitting here trying to decide whether or not to go to church today. It is Easter Sunday and I feel like not going today could be the final nail in the coffin for church. And seriously, how bad is it to use a coffin metaphor on Resurrection Sunday?
I’m trying to sort out why I don’t want to go. What happened to me that has left me feeling so ambivalent about church? I can’t believe how cynical I feel about it and I would say the church I go to has a lot going for it.
I just scrolled through Facebook and Instagram where I saw a number of posts from Easter Sunday services. Balloons, confetti, barefoot artists painting in the background while ministers preach. There was a laser light show in one post. Lots of full bands playing energetic music. Lots of hype. Lots of emotion. Lots of ‘resurrection’ and ‘new life’ talk. The church I attend has asked everyone to bring instruments or noise makers. Apparently today’s plans include a lot of noise. I’m expecting a party atmosphere. And yet, I can’t quite get myself all hyped up for the show.
Am I the only one who feels like all of this is so contrived?